Finding My Focus

For some reason I am just stuck! I have the passion, but not the focus to bring it home (or on paper). There are several subjects in which I wish to write some poetry, but I am having a heck of a time getting it out. I am having a heck of a time getting my thoughts straight. Part of it, I’m sure, is that my eight year old is home on holiday break, and that requires much of my attention. But there is more to it than that, I think. The good news is that I see my shrink this coming Monday, and that should help me get my thoughts straight; get my focus back. I also need to be reading on the topics in which I wish to write; also very important.

I think part of the problem is that I tend to want to keep some of my poetry secular, and I’m not a secular person. Most of what I am, and who I am is a person of God. I have this conflict, even with this blog in not wanting to be preachy or mega-religious (big turn off), so I hold back in what I am trying to say. But I have to break through and just be who I am; it is crucial to my creative edge.

You see, the topic I desire to write about is the hypocrisy of the religious right, and the failings of the liberal left, all in a Christian POV. Does that sound too complicated. I am infuriated with men and women who claim to be Christians advocating hate and violence. It’s an oxymoron. A Christian who supports war, as I read the bible, is not in touch with the Jesus I know. I tire of fellows who justify war by misusing scripture, and I feel extremely compelled to write about it. So, that WILL be the target of my next collection of poetry. I title it “Jesus and an M16”. I think that the title speaks for itself.

My next entry will be the ‘I hate television’ poem.

Television Kills Inspiration, news at 11

Well, I guess by now you can tell that I am feeling some things. This is an interesting time of the year to a creative person. Some will be filled with warm thoughts and pleasant memories, and it’ll come out on the paper. Others are tormented this time of year, and it will come out on the paper. Then, there are those who are half way between both, and inspired by neither. That would be me! I am feeling some things over this holiday about world peace, brotherly love, and the world community, but I am having a hard time getting it out. I think that during this time of year I shut down some emoticons  and have a hard time getting in touch. The good news is that I have so much more on my emotional plate than just the holidays, that I can still spew out a poem of some worth; probably nothing I’ll like in the long run. But for the most part, I’m a dry slate.

I also think that one thing, no, I know that one thing that kills my ability to create poetry is the television. I am starting to hate television with a passion, but yet, for some reason I can’t seem to stop watching it. I think that my mind has become so conditioned that it likes to be lazy, and just sit there and do nothing, just receiving the emotional responses that TV creates. It is like free stirrings for the mind, with no effort. It takes all of my emotions – my emotions is what creates most of my poetry – and grinds them to a small pebble. Even talking about it makes me angry. Hey wait, that’s an emotion! I think I am going to go and write about how much I hate television!

New Poem

The State of Man

Love me,
I love you!

Hate me,
I hate you!

Ignore me,
I ignore you!

Get in my way,
and you’re dead!